Fear death.. While death stands over watching me.. Laughing as usual... This time at me.. Looking at me when I'm struggling to decide whether to die or not die.. Let go and leave this world or stay and fight my every day battle.. Im scared.. Of both ends.. I may end up in a grave with my life over and just waiting for my after life.. With all the bad things I did... And all the good I didn't do.. My heart is just bounding I'm terrified... I'm scared of dying and I'm scared of living.. I feel fear again.. Eating my heart and mind.. Hiding my soul away.. I need not fear and have courage to face my distany no matter what.. I'm really really scared.. Life is getting harder everyday.. And I can't be this vulnerable now specially now.. So many fights and battles.. I need to stay strong.. I can do this I know I can.. I need to breath.. Believe in God's well.. Because I don't get to decide.. When my time comes.. It will just happen.. Untill then I need to stay strong.. Do more good than bad.. Be less afraid.. Doing good involves fighting many battles.. So.. Just keep going and do your best.. Untill your time comes..
