Misdiagnosis..

I have taken extraordinary measures to hide the fact that I'm actually waiting the endless wait for the next chapter of my life... And now after I'm done being busy with something else... I feel this wave of depression coming toward me... I can't wait any longer... I just can't... And I can't walk away either after I've reached this far... So close to the finish line they assume.. This state of waiting really is sucking life out of me.. I'm lost... I'm weak... My immune system is eaten by this huge stress I've added to my heart and mind... I can't claim my rights of living... My rights of being a human.. I'm all out of love... A Million friends won't replace the ones I've lost in time... Lost in vein... Lost in misunderstanding miscalculations misdiagnosis ... Friends I've lost behind the shield of pride... So many friends I've lost a long with little pieces of my heart and soul... I miss you all as I miss your days with your care free childhood dreams of this future... I hope you have a great life... There is nothing to say just writing something to fill the voids and spaces in time... Adding extraordinary measures by one..